Brainnnns
ok first lol, zombies ahahhaha. But yeah, so I was just exploring the ideas of the mind, the brain and the process of thinking as well as emotions. Not really sure why, just decided to dive into it a little bit more. Its kind of something that comes up here and there in the lives of people, especially today with all the hype around therapy and medication and I just wanted to explore the topic. Now, as a person who often observes and tracks the patterns of people, I tend to pick up on things that a lot of people might miss, as they are generally consumed with the dance around them, so they just dont really notice from that pulled back perspective. Honestly, I never really thought much of it, to be honest. Figured its just what people do in their down time. But as I began to learn more about the mind, its behaviors and how the brain and emotions work, I discovered a lot of really interesting things that kind of amuse me. I would say the biggest one kind of being that I really shouldnt act too much like anyone realy knows whats going on, even myself. I look at typical patterns of the masses, I look at outliers who throw different options, I look at crazy people who see totally differently and I look at the various versions of myself throughout time and marvel at the way each and everyone default to the same kind of pattern defenses and behaviors, usually just dolled up in different ways when it comes to humans. So it just kind of cracks me up at how much we are sold identities and tiers of being when I really dive into it, its all pretty much basic patterns expressed through unique channels. And its like, hahahaha why does anyone really think they know when so much of their time is spent trying to convinve others what they think so they can feel more safe in what they know? I dunno if that makes sense really, but I suppose that is kind of why its a little more funny.
But then I was thinking about a conversation I was having with a friend about the cycles of increasing awareness and the world we live in. We were talking about how we get caught up in ideas and concepts and thinking in ways where we all just seem to be clinging to ideas as if we can finally lock down the “ultimate pattern” and therefor always be safe or secure or assured in what we are doing. Then we ran through the thought process and noted how diving into any idea or any though always begins to fall apart when you go deep enough. And then I laughed and was like, “Yeah, thats the best part, because when you finally hit the point where you realize the thoughts can never be the totality, I just stop thinking, and in those moments I just experience life and its wonderful”. And they posed an important question, why do anything at all then. And I thought a moment and was like, because we are alive, so you might as well flow with the life that you want to flow, because their really is nothing else to do. Or rather, even doing nothing is a kind of doing, just a different angle on it. And it just makes methink, the Tao….. continously mentions the subtle essence of the univers. That the play of forms and their resulting physics arent really the point but the energy that carries under them. This is why the poor but connected can be happier then the rich but isloated, why those that follow passions can be seen as much more full than those that obtain significant goods. But I suppose thats also my perspective, so I laugh again. I dunno, brains are funny and the more i learn about them the more I look around and just crack up at all the crazy things humans do.
Fear though?
So I was watching a neurobiologist talk about the human brain and how different areas of our brain enable us to process in ways that go outside that of most creatues on the planet. That we posess this aspect to our thinking that eneables us to think out, in sync with emotion, without necessarily the awareness of it. And he was talking about how this part of the brain allows us to create in such wonderful ways, but at the same time it allows us to create in such terrible ways. Like, it is the same thing that enables me to dream up and idea at 4am in a dream, then hold and bring it into life…..just as it is the same thing that allows me to imagine the terrible things I have gone through and create them as well. Paradoxes and duality…..so why not flow the life you want to flow?
Hahaha that is reminding me of a conversaion I was having with an old friend last night. We are both a little creative and unique, but he was asking me to help him see through a situation that he was lost in. Being old firned, we haven o problem joking with each other and I was like, why would you want the craziest out of the two of us to be choosing the path forward, you know I will just grow and adapt in a moment and then adjust, I dont stay still in that sense. And he was like, because for whatever reason, I seem to be the best a swimming in the world of crazy. And while my answer may not be a total solution, it helps keep him directed so that he can move. And so I am like, wait, you want me to help you decide what to do, just so we can ignore it tomorrow? And hes like Exaclty! You are the only one I have ever met that can flow with the paradoxes of life and not get stopped. And it totally triggers so many memories of things people have said to me about my impact on their lives over the last half a decade or so. And it just made me smile. Even though I never really feel like I do anything at all, their are people on this planet that smile more because I was alive. Just a wonderful thought. lol ok, now my brain is tired from too much thinking of nonsensical stuff hahahahaha or maybe its the only stuff ever worth thinking about. Time to go snuggle my cat! The only real solution, wonder if hes gonna yell at me. Anyway, about to leap into the unknown again, pretty scary….but what else is their to do? Why not do what might help inspire the most smiles even if I never see them.
