Oh how sweet
So I had a crazy full day of pretending to be a human, ofc course having to schedue like a million people at once, all wiht like 5 hours or driving between them all and needing it to all go perfect. XD yeah right, first one was not even the right person who showed up, the second was a guy who was more worried about his little kitties than what i was there to talk about, luckily the cats loved me, so that made it easy hahahah. But yeah, normal crazy human stuff. But omg, I was just driving all over the place, through little towns, over mountains, along farms, it was like a tour thourhg the forest of pa and all they have to offer, and you know what…… every so often I would just get the sweetest smell of blooming flowers. And even though my entire schedule was filled I am all like, who cares, theres flowers to smell and petals to touch XD. Oh but it was such a wonderful thing to experience. The sun on my skin, the fresh air, the winding roads and cool shade dappling light onto the floor, so freaking wonderful, I just wanted to share. So I did as best I am currently permitted to do so by the universe XD. Oh yeah…. I forgot, I was talking to a customer about preserving the charm of her historical house and were all talking bout frames and wood and rot and whatever other nonsence XD and mid conversation I was all like Wait, and I tilt my head up and she like what, what is it, looking all scared and I am like, your flowers just bloomed and they smell amazing. Like who cares about work, I got priotirites XD.
The River Spirit was waiting
So….I pretty much got tired of society telling me to do stuff and was all like, you know what, I dont feel like listening to all these fears, the ones of the world, the ones of others and the ones in my own head. So I was like, ok I know what to do, listen to my soul and trust that the universe will play out exactly as its supposed to. So yesterday, I had a million things to do and was all like, you know what, fuck it, I am exploring the world instead. I grabbed a few lectures and walked out into nature. It was so awesoms to listen to the wind, to watch the tall grasses shimmer in the light light, to have my presence in the moment as the sun smiled down at me. I was watching butterflies dance around me, listenin to the river bubble and cracking up at myself for getting so lost in the demands of the world. Omg i was like, I totally am just cracking up out loud at nothing and loving every minutes of it. And then in some small twist of fate I saw the river spirit, poor thing looks like he was sitting there forever waiting for me with his hand out. Like bro, I been trying to hand you all of this forever, what have you been doing?!?! And I just crack up again, ofc because I know. Why fight what is already real, why struggle when you know what is true, why be afraid when even your worst challenges built you into the one who can move through them. And I wonder…..so what is it doing with me now? I am not exactly sure, but I know who I want to share everything with, so I do, if your listening or not. Ohhhhhhh I seen such a cute chunky little bumblebee, first one I saw this year. Oh, and the feeling of light poking through the clouds rolling across the mountains feels just like running your fingertips across a soft blanket, just in case you didnt know. Also, I am going to open my heart right now, I dont feel like any more words, I’ll meet you in the space between , hope to see you there. I miss you.
