Ramblings
So, you know…….have you ever felt the peace of life when it was simultanously total chaos all around you? Not really that you switch one on or off but that they both exist at the same time, or even more if you feel around inside and really look. It’s just like sometime I really dont get what people are even talking about when they are expressing things…..not that I dont know…..but more like……oh is that it? Like I am waiting for the other side, or the conflicting statement that counters that one, or the one who sits behind and watches then, or the one the hides in the corner and laughs about flowers, or the one that looks as the moon and just wants to fun. They are there, arent they there? And then its like ehhhhh i guess in a way none of them really are. Like earlier today I was feeling totally at peace, while looking at my life that just seems so wild. And I start cracking up at things, like I just sold some job by telling the person how bad i am at remembering things, and how I often have no idea what I am doing….and shes all like your hired! XD if you say so ma’am, but you better remind me cause im gonna forget XD. Ten minutes later she texts me, thank you so much for coming to see the house, i have just been so overwhelmed and you helped it all seem so much easier. was cool, i like people like that, she was kinda goofy, her place was trashed, shes like im moooovin’ out, im tired of these kids wiith their loud music all hours of the night 11-12 XD, then all the hoodlums omg i was dying laughing. people are hilariosu sometimes.
Oh but its not always good, like some people just do not like me. It’s wierd when its people I dont even know or never even really heard of though. Like, to carry that much anger toward someone you dont even deal with seems kind of like a waste of energy to me. A lot of people do end up changing thier mind, so thats cool, but still, some people just suck for no reason. But not everyone gotta like me lol. Like one time this guy hated me because i didnt use a proper name for something. Yeah, cause your gonna be real fun the talk to XD
Folklore
So I was watching this video of a Dr in like ancient lore or something XD talking about folklore and stuff, and people were asking her all the specific questions. And it was really interesting how she explained it kind of as a flowing of lore. But I found the way she thought about it really interesting. Obviously super folklore nerd XD. But thats pretty cool. oh ill share it lol.
Sometimes I like to just lay down and imagine galaxies and space and wonderous expansive things, its kind of fun, little exciting hahaha. If you have giant wings, do you have a hard time sleeping, or are they extra comfy? Do you think if you could talk to ostriches, would it really do any good? I once had a dream that i could shapeshift and into multiple of things, so ofc i was a wol first lol, then two wolves, then a bunch of bats and then a million little spiders. and when I woke up i distinctively remember feeling how difficult it was mentally to be so many spiders at once XD. wierd feeling.
