Characters | Roles
I was thinking about how we all develop identities and personalities and those somewhat govern our lives. I find it funny that the word personality means something so concrete in our culture yet it is derived from the word phersu, which means actor or mask. Like they knew enough back then to remind us that they are not the total reality of things, yet we lost the original understanding.
Then I thought about how most people have the ability to compartmentalize a couple or more. Then their are some who can do very many and swap between them quickly. Then theirs the depth of each one, are they surface level or can the go much further. Then I wonder on peoples orignal “personality” for lack of a better word. Or maybe the better thought, is their chosen personality. Not the one they choose to show, but the one that is more often than not, most secretly guarded. It can be let out in bits, but I feel they are rarely shown in totality. In a world of transaction and exchange, and a lot of danger, we all develop quite a reluctance to open that freely. Then we wear out personas, our masks, our roles and carry through in shields. But I wonder, have I ever opened and had someone see the real me inside it all. And I know I have.
Blink
So back to the meaning of the word. If people forgot the origin of the word and are so convinced that their personas are really them, then how many people go around not remembering who they are anymore. These roles are not always the easiest or most simple to keep up. Lifes challenges can make that even more so, as the extremes we must go through can be overwhelming. So the job consumes us and over time the pattern building mind programs into that form. But, the one who watches inside is always there. The one that ultimately connects them all. But, some never find it again, some deny it ever existed, some learn to open it on their own and others have a light shined on it so that ignoring it becomes impossible. Funny part is, no person seems to be in control of any of these lol. Even the ones who deny or try to open, they still dont even get to decide. A mask worn in a game on a field….but what goes on underneath that has the power to change it all?
Ofc had to run out immediately this morning for some nonsense, dunno if im alive yet, but something was hilarious XD. I stop at the store and right at the counter this plastic thing snaps, a can of some wierd cotton candy drink fall off the counter, hits a hook on the way down, bursts open and sprays everywhere lol The cashier like 6 feet away was like “That shot all the way over here”. It was such a mess, bright blue crap everywher, like everywhere! I think my whole right leg was blue XD. But we cleaned it up fast, I hope it didnt get anywhere annoying we missed lol sticky stuff sucks to clean.
