Layers of Thought

I often find it amusing the layers of thought that might go into any interaction. Its like their are always several thoughts in my head from different perspectives all trying to pull me in one direction or another. And its never that one is wrong and one is right, more ofthen than not, they are both right, depending on the view I want to take at the time. So, there I sit, as the one who watches. Do I lean one way, do I lean another, do I hold, do I let go, do I turn away or move toward. I look deeply at these questions always, what makes me want to pick one, what makes me lean in the same way, what encourages me to lean another? What are patterns, what are fears, what is conditioning, what is false, what is true……questions I never stop asking. 

Ofc a Paradox

Its funny because if you just keep diving into these sorts of question you always burn through it all. And when you finally get down to the core of things, it become a paradox. Does it matter? No/Yes…. is it imporant Yes/No…..should I care No/Yes….. and then I get it! And I cant help but laugh. How foolish a mind is this? One side says yes, the other says no, then I look a different way and the answers change. What a nut lol. And all of them are pretending they are so serious and vital to everything. But when I sit back and reflect over everything that has ever happened in my life and what experiences I have had across a million existences…..theirs only one thing ever that was true. And ofc its the very thing I can’t prove even exists at all. A paradox. Yet to me, thier was never any question, never. You are true to me.