Sunny Day
It was a really beaultiful day today. And because of what I planned to do, I got to spend almost all of it hanging outside and enjoy all the fresh air. It really felt like sping and I was so happy for it, winter drives me bonkers when its that long XD. It’s kind of funny because the two days prior had a lot of challenges where I had to learn a ton of stuff really fast under pressure all while being tired for not sleeping so well. Kind of a drain on the spirit, I really dont enjoy when I get hit with those things. But then, one thing that I do love about how my brain works is how those high stress situations spark it to create solutions so those kinds of things never happen again. And not just in the same-sense problems, but in the removal of problems all togather. Its like it see them and complicated puzzles it wants to break into pieces and then create pattern solutions that make all future problems vanish. Sure it can be a little overactive at times, another reason I love to go outside to balance it with stillness. But yeah, reeling in its nonstop processing is something that took me a long time to balance, this thing be firing on all cylinders at all times XD. And as we know, life doesnt exactly stop handing you challenges. But it can be extremely useful in making my life easier as long as I dont let it run the show.
Omg, that totally reminds me of when I was a kid. I would always have these parent techer conferences and they would say “If Andrew spent half as much time on his work, as he does avoiding work, then he would get straight A’s”. And I just crack up, because in fact, one of my most appreciated skills is my ability to develop things so I dont have to do anything XD. It reminds me of those old craftsman, have you ever seen them on youtube…old carpenters, or blacksmiths or whatever, and you can see the skill and care they put into their work and how they know thier medium so well, they can in 2 cuts what another person might take half a day and 47 cuts lol. Except, my brain figures out systems to reduce work, so over time it got extremely good and finding those systems and building them. I guess the only real catalyst in my life then come from the meaning I find in it, and what is worth the chalenge to overcome.
Colors
You know what I find relly amazing in my life, just how useful my knowledge of color and light has become. Its strange because it was just something I really enjoyed, something I found so fascinating and something my heart just loved to dive into. But what I have found is how often I use it. And not really always to explain the technicality of it, but more often just to share in the delight of it with other people. I run into people all the time who are very proud of their work, their designs, their choices in things, when they dont always have a way of explaining it or putting it into words. And because I have this rediculous library of info on visual creation I can translate things in a way that helps them understand just how great they are at such things, why technically they are beautiful, and why their inner guide was right all along. I mean, it is a little bit silly tbh….. but I see people light up when I do this and I love it in so many ways. Its like they listened to their heart, and then I offer them the way at which their heart was playing, in technical terms. In a world where we dont always get support, it feels so good to have someone not only support, but to look deeper into the depth of it and appreciate that which you crated in a whole new way. I mean, when we express ourselves honestly, it is always so wonderful, so nice to have someone deeply appreciate it.
Pirates
I find it interesting what people often choose as their fantasy escapes. I mean you hear of the usual, I want to travel forever, I want to live simply on a farm, and one of my favorites, I’ll go live in the woods XD. But one of my favorites is to tell people that I am going to become a pirate. Not that I will do much pirating, but just the idea of sailing free around the shores to explore the world, feels the air and have access to unpraralelled access to the sky. But I think back on how many times I share this humorous fantasy with people and how many of them have said they would join me on my pirating adventure, usually as long as we can have cool pirate pets XD. The funny part being, at this point it has lasted so long I could prolly make it happen easily enough XD. I could only imagine, being a pirate hahahah. I mean, I do like those old pirate jackets a lot hahah. Gonna need a sewing machine ony my ship I guess haha. RRrrrrrr matey! I guess if that falls apart I could become a forest monk. Omg, might be worth it just for the story hahaha. You ever heard about the pirate turned monk…..yeah he right there eating tacos with his monkey XD
I wonder how hard it would be to build a kit car…..I should make one, maybe a buggy haha ohhh I think im losing it tonight.
