Lets see something Random
So, I wanted to see where three random words would take me if I just let my thoughts run with it. Heck, why not, all gonna end up telling me to be more present anyway XD thats always the end. So here’s the words, Kettle, Breeze and Staff. Hahaha ok, so what it actually made me think of first was the scene in Macbeth where the witches are mixing up all the magic…. double bubble toil and trouble, or however the scene goes. Which reminds me of how I had to play lady Macbeth in school XD, oh man I practiced so hard to get all my lines right and still botched it up. But this is why I am not an actor, want me to make up a million stories on the fly in real life, no problem. Remember a sentence I am supposed to say 100% accurately, im doomed.
Its kind of funny because it reminds me of all these training videos I keep making for people. Like everyone gets so worked up about being so proper and perfect. Oh the lighting must be right, the subject very clear, the topic on point. Which to a degree is right. But its not at all how life goes, not even work. So here I am, trying to show a couple people how to work together to integrate the two paths I have them working in and learn to flow together. Meanwhile, I am singing (terribly might I add) in the middle of the lesson, I take a few breaks to chomp on my cats ear, another break to fight him off after he gets mad at me. 50 minutes in I go, ok brain tired, gonna stare at the wall for 2 minutes…..and then I do. Meanwhile I am bouncing all over the place….oh do this, wait, it isnt working, how bout try this, what if we do this….wait gimme a second, ok i broke down the code, i dont know what it means, but this is highlited and that must be a clue. 15 minutes later I found a new way to get through the problem that no one knew before and I am just cracking up. Suuuuure it was supposed to be about sending images to the dump folder, and posting this update on this server ect ect…..but in the end it turns into a lesson on how to deal with some BS that happens every time you try to get something done lol.
Its just funny, I tell people when the come to work with me, hey, I am nuts, so you have to be a little nuts if your gonna handle it XD. Sure, some people freak out without the hard structure, but others, they thrive when they are finally given permission to explore and make mistakes. All the while joking with me about my giant cat, or my terrible singing. Or the fact that for my photo editing video I spent 20 minutes assuring clients on that phone that I have everything under control, as everyone laughs at me cause they know its currently a dumpster fire XD. But hey, I always figure it out before anyone notices hahaha Just that, the chaos never stops, so you might as well have fun while your on fire hahaha
The Breeze
This word however, this word sparks something in me. You see one of the times I went through a major shift in my life I was out in the cool of the night, just experiencing the calm of the world at that time. And after all the insanity, it was like my senses were finally free to feel alive. It was snowing and the roads were all empty so I was just walking straight down the middle of the road and then I felt it. The gentle dance of the wind between my fnigers, something so soft, so graceful and so alive about it. So there I find myself, hands stratched out, snow falling and a breeze gently flowing thorugh my person and I felt alive.
Ever since then I have enjoyed the way the wind reminds me to slow down and be present in the world (lol told you I’d get here). And its pretty amazing, the more you look, the more these kinds of things appear everywhere around us. Its like, if you can be open then the universe opens back up to you. The wind, rain drops, rustling leaves, even the way my own fingers feel when I put my attention on their touch. And its like, how do people even survive without being able to find this deep peace in simplicity.
Oh, that reminds me, so last night I was walking out under the stars and felt a breeze rush past the trees nearby, and it whispered for me to stop. I looked into the totally clear night sky, not focused, not searching, not scanning, just allowing all of creation to reflect back to me. And it could have been 5 seconds or 50 minutes, I’m not sure, but for that time, I was in the universe. I was part of the miracle of creation and experience, not judging, not labeling, just living in the flow of all things. And I felt, just how much I would love to share this with you.
Oh, and meteor showers are going on btw :D. Not peaking for a week or so, but you can still catch some good ones. But yeah, if you ever need to find proof the impossible is real, look at the stars. And chances are, I am up there with you, experiencing it all together.
