Rambling

I dunno, I just want to ramble. You know that really drives me crazy, how small people can be. Not that I dont understand, because I do, but what is it that makes some people just decide to stay lost in these old defect patterns. Like I have talked to full grown men in the past week, that revert to 12 old defense tactics when they screw something up. And like, my brain cant even fathom why someone would be that way, it just makes no sense at all. Then I have others who cling so closely to imaginary things that it drives them crazy. But if you even suggest at releasing it from their lives its like you taking away their identity. Which I also kind of get, but still find it so weird.

I guess what im really processing at the moment is the insane amount of paradoxes that occur in daily life. On one hand i can see the human side, the struggle, the pain, the feeling of being weak and powerless and afraid. But then , on the other hand, I can see how we are all eternally powerful, capable and filled with opportunity for greater things. I see why people cling, and I see why others rise. I see us all struggle with your own challenges and obstacles, but I also see how so many of them are neglected for illusions. Are things meant to make us grow, or are thing meant to break us down. Is this an opportunity, or is this a trap? Does it even matter? From one perspective it is nothing but life in all its chaos, from another its the battle between good and evil.

Do we fight, do we war, do we press on, do we give up, do we accept, do we hold strong, or do we move swiftly. The more I think about it the more I realize that its the intent. Not that the outcome goes one way or another, but that we align with our greatest essence and use that to guide us forward. I dont know where I may have to step tomorrow, or what sacrifices i might have to make, but if I can be purposeful in my choice and hold intent with my actions, then the right results will eventually come about. So today I may pick the color blue, it may be the wrong color, but if my intent is pure, then eventually I will see that the color green was right , but I had to choose blue to get there. Anyway, like i said, rambling. Most people would find this the most insane and clueless conversational topic possible, but to me, it reminds me of how I hold strong when everything seems hopeless. Its not about judging my isolated actions and their results in the physical world, its about holding strong to the highest values and awareness i can find, then trusting it will grow and evolve as I do. You are not wrong, no matter how conflicted or what results come about. Just hold strong to your inner strength and awareness, so if the time comes where an alternate answer appears, you will have a choice. Not in ultimacy, but in flow.

Also F#%$ Yeah Gummi Bears

Dashing and daring, courageous and caring, faithful and freindly with stories to share, all through the forest they sing out in chorus, marching along as their song fills the air, gummi bears, bouncing here and there and everywhere, high adventure that beyond compare, they are the gummi bears. Magic and mystery are part of their history along with the secret of gummi beary juice, their legend is growing, they take pride in knowing, the’ll fight for whats right in what ever they do. gummy bears, bouncing here and there and everywhere. 

And Yes, I know all the lyrics and I love to sing it, so what, fight me.