Shadows – Do they Hide?

So, I was thinking about the presence of shadows in our lives. You hear people talk all the time about facing your shadow side, about fighting your shadow side and even thoughts on using your shadow. But what I think is a common mistake, is to assume that shadows are hidden, somehow lurking in the background or operating from beneath the surface. But I have come to realize that most shadows do exactly the oppostie, they dont lurk, instead the move to the front, creating a vail before anyone can see through them. What I see is countless people hidden in the games of their shadows, so consumed that they themselves see almost nothing but shadow. I know because I spend most of my life hidden behind my own shadow as well. 

Backwards

It just make me think how we are kind of backwards. Usually when you look for answers or help in the areas you are struggling, what you are doing is using your shadow to appease your shadow. Then you get all these little games to play, rearrange, rethink, or recycle the same issue just in another format. Not that it isnt helpful from the place you are at, buecause it is how most people interact with the world. But at the same time we shoud be asked to look inward to see what it is behind teh shadow that holds back and why. No, im not talking about your choldhood memories or your human conditionning, but the dissolution of core believes that have compounded over time. When a room is black, yes, you can shine a light in the window, but lighting a candle in the middle of it works far better. And thats the saddest part, for whatever reason we get lost in these superficial battles with surface when what is really needed is a calling of light into the heart of darkness. 

It reminds me of a lecture by Ram Das, in this lecture he talks about his own dysfunctions. He talks about all these different “faults” and how we get the idea in our head that these are going to be removed or done away with. But in the end, he realized that its not that they go….its that our relationship with them changes. Instead of ohhhh nooo depression, its changes to, oh depression, there you are again, how have you been. Because people do not realize, it is these difficulties and challnges that make us the most useful to others who suffer. Without the ability to relate, we would have no means to connect to anothers pain and share how we may have worked our own way through. 

So whats this rediculous focus on trying to make us all totally baseline, how stupid. Because I feel pain so deeply, I can love deeply, because I can see the world as insane, I can see true sanity, beause I can fall into despair, I can see how one can be carried out. I love all the totally insane, unusual, strange and wierd parts about myself. I dont care that they make me noncompliant, difficult, confusing, or abnormal. They also make me alive in a way that few can ever experience. Look at the world…..all trying to be normal…..and its a shit show….. no thanks, I’ll be me and alive…. I suggest you do the same. Forget the shadows, let the light come out.