Strange

I find the ways in which the world plays out so very strange. Honestly their might not be many who are as good at determining patterns and seeing the automatic reflexes of people then I. Its come from years and years of just observing how people act, how people behave in certain ways when certain conditions are met and how the brain is quite predictable in its defense and attack strategies. But always, always, their are those that surprise me to no end. They can do things that should be impossible, they face things that are unfathomable and they continue to stand when everything in the world looks to cut them down. And its not even in that way that they tell you to look, its not in some big show, or this “look at me” crap that you see everywhere. Its this quiet inner power that more often than not goes unnoticed. Its the real power that moves our worlds, not the fake one that is power over others, but power to make changes in ourselves. Sometimes its never even apparent to the world, but I see it in some and it always amazes me. 

Strength

It makes me think of what is shown in the world as strength. You can see flashes of battles, wars, bombs, fighting, arguements, pressing and pulling. And then we are told, oh well those that are victorious are the ones who are the strongest. But when I look at those people, those who are said to be strong, said to be the “best” I cant help but laugh. Look at how afraid they are, look at how weak, look what they have to do to prove to themselves they are strong. And if you even make a noise that slightly opposes them, they rattle and quake. How weak, the sqeaking of a mouse can ruin their day.

Now, its not to say competition is bad, for that is always their argument. But two students trying to create the very best science project push each other to create even better things. That is healthy competition, and i do see this play out as well. Often with the opposing forces being close friends when the challenge is said and done. But when one only cares for the winning, then it is easier to sabotage the other, rather than grow themselves. That is weak, that is selfish, that is sad. And the saddest part, now even the good are caught up in the war they never wanted to have, jusst because someone could not bear to “lose”. But then we all lose.

I See You

I think of the people I have come across in my life, those who are a little strange, a little odd, those who are quiet, those who are timid, those who feel uncertain. And I think about the brilliance I see in them. And its kind of funny, they notice, that I see them. And not in the way that makes sense, because I have talked to them about it on many occasions. And usually we cant figure it out at all XD. But, I just see so much power in them. And my god, when you let them know you believe in them, they do the most miraculous things you could ever imagine. And the only reason I know this, is because they are me. The wars I have fought just to do things that might seem like nothing, the pain I have felt just to look ahead and take a step…. Yeah, place them side by side with one of those “victorious” people, you compare stats, and maybe we look less than. But If you see what battle they had to face just to get out of bed, or to talk to a new friend or reach for something new, it is miles more powerful than what a victory over others can appear on the surface. I dunno what im carrying on about really. But I can say one thing, I am so grateful that I have met these kinds of people in my life. Sure I have friends that are doctors, others lawyers or millionairs or whatever…. But its my friend who stood up to his demons and now found love that amazes me. It is my friend who stopped hiding behind walls and came to join us on an adventure that makes me think that people are powerful. Those who fought their shadows and are now glowing with light that show me what real is.

It reminds me of one of my faovrite stories. Their was a monastary near a village that was being taken over by rutheless warriors. When all the people were killed or had fled, the leader of the army came down only to hear their was one monk still sitting in the middle of the temple. The worrior furious at his disobedience walked right up to this monk and said “Don’t you know who I am, I can take this sword, and run it straight through your body, without even batting an eye”. The monk calmly looked up, and replied “Don’t you know who I am, I can have you take that sword, and run it straight through my body, without even batting an eye.” And the warrior realized all of his power meant nothing at all. That is the power of someone who has faced their shadow. Nothing can shake them, and the energy behind their presence can can alter the lives of countless others. This is why it is my friends who faced true evils, true pain, true sorrow, and chose to be light, instead of darkness…. they are the ones that inspire. I’m so grateful to have met many like this, and maybe you have too. They are the true gifts of this world, the ones that made real change, not just exchanges of castles, but shifts in light. So if you see them, or remember them, or come across someone new who might look like they are not all that anything. Look again, you may be seeing infinite potential just waiting for someone to believe. Think of all the good that could come if we helped them all find their light. I may not be all that amazing, and my life not all that grand, but I can walk with my heart wide open and not fear the pain I may face.