Ok, WTH Universe?!!?
So seriously, whats your deal? Do you ever feel like you might be on the break of something amazing, or even overcoming something that has been so long , just out of reach. And just when you think your about to get it, BOOM, the universe decides its ultimate challenge time. And yeah yeah, i know, oh its because its building you up through challenges in order to make you into something stronger and better than you were before. But still, can’t something just be a nice clean win, why all the battles!?!?!?
The Hidden Thread
It makes me think of the golden thread that runs through our lives, bridging every experience and opporunity through our souls development and journey. Everyone has one, some are more visible, others buried behind illusion and falsehoods. What makes one person have a simple life with ease and another a life full of challenges. What makes one persons challenges into a growing experience while another person is crushed by them? Why do some of these threads seem indestructable while others fray in a strong gust of wind. Why do some get pulled so drastically it shapes their very being, while others completely deny it exists at all.
Yes, we all have our own unique paths to walk and our own callings that drive us forward, but what amazes me is just how different they can be. Friends, family, neighbors, those closest to you, grew up with you, shared many experiences with you….. often do not see at all how vastly different you operate. It’s not good or bad, just kind of funny. So much stock put on mental understanding when in reality that has very little to do with much of anything.
Ok, I’m Rambling
Yeah, ok, I might be rambling a bit, but at the same time, this seems far more important to me than what kdrama might be out XD. But I suppose thats my thread, my direction, my calling. I like to sit and think, why pain, why love, why hurt, why joy….. and no I am not looking for answers at all, but enjoying the exploration of the concepts that cannot be answered. It reminds me of something I believe Alan Watts said, a poets job is to say with words what cannot be said with words. And it reminds me of why I paint. Sure, I like pretty pictures, but what they say to your soul is far more important than any imagery they attempt to convey.
Which makes me think, isn’t every action you perform an art in a way? Are you completing tasks or are you expressing love and life? Are you buying a hotdog or are you exchanging the results of your energies in order to support others who use their energy to cultivate food?
But back to my original thought, whats the deal with the universe? Why does it turn some light to the sky, and other light to the shadows. Why are some written about in books while others are never noticed, yet they change the course of countless lives. Is it trying to break me, or is it trying to open me up? Or do we ultimately decide that for ourselves in the end? The mystery will always be there in our minds, but our hearts have always known the answer.
Been seeing a lot of shooting stars lately, after a period of not seeing any for the longest time. Does it mean nothing, or does it mean everything? I say everything….
